JUST A MESS

So, it is this guy. Idk I don’t even like him that much but I tend to have my eyes on him. You know what its like right. Like, no its not crushing or printing on someone but its just maybe I just liKe his appearance? I really don’t have any idea tho. And, to be a plot of my story is, there is my friend. She’s fine. But, lately I think she prolly in love with him too. Its not like I would care bout that. Its her feeling and I won’t judge. I don’t really mind if one day she will be this guy m8te. But nah, I don’t think so. She’s not that kind of person. All she cares is just her studies. I'm not gonna say name. no particular name, details. Just nope. But, it wont be surprise if she starts dating either. I mean everyone has their own right to choose their own path. Am I right?

And to be honest I am so close to this girl. We’re always together and we had the same crush before. Haha its funny how I turn to be her friend. Eventho its not ‘bestfriend’ I really really adore her. She’s vv kind, nice and the most important she’s just a way to honest. That’s I love the most. HONESTY. She let out what in her mind. Just like that. She’s not afraid telling the truth even sometimes its hurt me tho. Tbh. But nah, we’re 19. We should accept what people say and we should not oppose their opinion down their throat. Accept and learn. That’s it. A matured person should at least do that. You don’t have anything to lose tho by acting like that. In fact, you’ll be love by all people around you. I know maybe sometimes you have this feeling “I am perfect. Ignore what people say. I love being myself.” Dear, its true but sometimes, transformation is a must. Perfection is really just a myths. There is no such thing. Our generation has this problem about the perfection thing. They want all to turn out to be perfect and in the end there goes disappointment.

I really don’t have idea what am I doin rn. I'm t the edge of this final and yet still have time to wrote this things. Hahaha. In fact, I have no one to talk to. I am so alone *screams down the cliff* hahaha. Actually its not a big thing I'm just wanna write btw since its freakin aged in here. Boohoo. I miss my harry so much. Oh yaa,almost forget to mention. Last 2 days, when I woke up I saw the notification and “aghhhhh what the hell is this” “this is not true” “this is impossible” “he cant do this to me” that was me. It was Connor. He admit it. He is gay. Don’t judge,and yes im in love w him all these time and the fact that he is gay wont change my feeling tho. Aww rosy feeling in the air *winkwink*

Okay that is all I guess. Ughhh what am I doing. K I should finish my study. K byep!