JUST A MESS

So, it is this guy. Idk I don’t even like him that much but I tend to have my eyes on him. You know what its like right. Like, no its not crushing or printing on someone but its just maybe I just liKe his appearance? I really don’t have any idea tho. And, to be a plot of my story is, there is my friend. She’s fine. But, lately I think she prolly in love with him too. Its not like I would care bout that. Its her feeling and I won’t judge. I don’t really mind if one day she will be this guy m8te. But nah, I don’t think so. She’s not that kind of person. All she cares is just her studies. I'm not gonna say name. no particular name, details. Just nope. But, it wont be surprise if she starts dating either. I mean everyone has their own right to choose their own path. Am I right?

And to be honest I am so close to this girl. We’re always together and we had the same crush before. Haha its funny how I turn to be her friend. Eventho its not ‘bestfriend’ I really really adore her. She’s vv kind, nice and the most important she’s just a way to honest. That’s I love the most. HONESTY. She let out what in her mind. Just like that. She’s not afraid telling the truth even sometimes its hurt me tho. Tbh. But nah, we’re 19. We should accept what people say and we should not oppose their opinion down their throat. Accept and learn. That’s it. A matured person should at least do that. You don’t have anything to lose tho by acting like that. In fact, you’ll be love by all people around you. I know maybe sometimes you have this feeling “I am perfect. Ignore what people say. I love being myself.” Dear, its true but sometimes, transformation is a must. Perfection is really just a myths. There is no such thing. Our generation has this problem about the perfection thing. They want all to turn out to be perfect and in the end there goes disappointment.

I really don’t have idea what am I doin rn. I'm t the edge of this final and yet still have time to wrote this things. Hahaha. In fact, I have no one to talk to. I am so alone *screams down the cliff* hahaha. Actually its not a big thing I'm just wanna write btw since its freakin aged in here. Boohoo. I miss my harry so much. Oh yaa,almost forget to mention. Last 2 days, when I woke up I saw the notification and “aghhhhh what the hell is this” “this is not true” “this is impossible” “he cant do this to me” that was me. It was Connor. He admit it. He is gay. Don’t judge,and yes im in love w him all these time and the fact that he is gay wont change my feeling tho. Aww rosy feeling in the air *winkwink*

Okay that is all I guess. Ughhh what am I doing. K I should finish my study. K byep!

THE HAIRY

YO YO. MEET MY 5/5 BABIESSS.IM SORRY FOR THE SHOUT OKAY I AM VV EXCITEDD GUISEEE. HEHE OKAY STAHP
oh my god, after the U AND I, which was last summer, they release their FOUR guys. am so excited that ive download all the soundtracks *hides phones *hides music player *hides playlist
its a shame their album wont be in Malaysia.I hate that*whispering
SO today is the day. AMAs award. And guys,they did it. The boys did it! They even won the 'American artist of the year' i feel like a proud mama here.*wipe tears. I know they can make it.Harry can make it.Obama can make its. Whoops. Not that one.
I'm really really madly deeply in love with the boys especially the Hairy one. I mean Harry. Harold. Harreh or wtv. Idk if 4 years ago i was like who the hell is this guy. Why his hair looks like that. Curly. Ewww. Guys trust me, I will do everything to touch that curls rn.His curls,his vital. God save me.  And Im not basically fall in love with Harry base on his look.*cough
I started to love him adore him and liking him just because of a book. Guys I repeat. By a book.
Idk. It is just for fun seriously. That time i dont even listen to their song. Well i did, when im was 17 .And after that i found this book by futuoharry.Guys seriously she is the most hillarious person ive ever know.Haha.Her writing is pffttt idk she's just good ngl. That was the first time i read Harry's fiction. And end up like this,falling for Harry and the rest 4/5 boys. The amazing thing is,the book is still ongoing. I mean the part 1 and 2 were completed just a lil while ago. And she's still working on the part 3 which is 'reconnect'. It's just a typical storyline but idk don't ask why I'm addicted. Wink wink
And there's more. Ive read phantom by seasidestyles or Tess. I've finished that book this morning. I woke up and I checked for the update. that is basically my life.It was the last chapter.And I cried*hides face
IT WAS SAD OKAY. I'M FINE THO.
I really really wish i can meet those boys in the futuo. Seriosly. Guys, pls wait for me. Hahaha. Stanford is not that far tho from Holmes.
I left the video here.
LISTEN TO IT.
IT IS a great song NGL.
But I like Night Changes MORE.
HAve you check on their video clip? It was great guys NFL.
Ughh I can't stop this shitty talk.
I got programming tmr. Ughh that's sucks tbh.
But I love programming
SO THAT'S IT.SEE ya FRAnds.
CONNOR bae I LOVE  you

The DREAM

Working on my tutorials and suddenly have thought on writing blog which is not really my thing cz I got so many important things to do. 

Pfft nooo don’t laugh ughh I am being serious(can’t you see I am using proper English?) hahaha naww. Nothing much I just feel like I eanna write bout something. 

Not really important matter. Just about my life lately. Well no one’s gonna read right? Hahah. Just I learned a lot of things lately. 

Goods bad.

 Everything.

 Many things randomly happened lately. Ive cried, laughed a lot like 9:1 laughs and cry? Now if u ask me bout why I even cried, well simple, shit happened. Hell who would cry over happy things? I mean they did tearing and that is not we call crying. Wow I actually find that meaning on Google right hahah. Ive made effort k bij.

 Hahaha tenite I don’t feel like I’m gonna sleep. Well no class for Wednesday. Like yea I’m in Unimas and idea why I got no class tmr. And I think I should be happy at least for this semester hahah. And the most important thing is I hooked by the electrical things. 

You know I’ve been studying for years since im in primary till now and only NOW I feel like I really interested in studies.

 Hahahah weird right? 

Noo its not weird, like if before I study just to impress my parents(which is white lies). 

Mom Dad forgive me.

***insert cries emojis***

 I have never thought on going to college be4. Like its randomly happened right. I get choose to one of my favourite university(UnImasian af).

 Im really grateful to be here. And those luxury things hahah only in Unimas k u got those facilities. Wifi using fibre optic. Fck(xcuse the words/) imagine that. Using fibre optic(wire that only hair-size you can say) idk go Google for it. It can reach hundreds Mbps at midnights. Am not exaggerating bij, I’m telling the truth k.

And ya Im majoring in Engineering. Electrical and electronic engineering.

and here i met pfttt hella thousands incredible persons right. Professor, Dr, Dean, Ir well almost all of them are from other country. And Ive been thinking. "Mom pls let me go to Stanford Univercity." God bless me.

Idk its my favorite University everrrrr guise. Imagine that im gonna fly to one of the bestest university in the world.

I cant even imagine. possibilities. right. You can never able to predict what will happen next. 

PERFECT DREAM OF MINE

And after that I'll met my HArry, ofc I'll visit Chapel. U know daddy Harry wait for me bby. Wth. 

I think i better stahp hahaha 

See you pretty sexy bitchachosss :)

A message for you

Assalamualaikum ..
you must be happy right there , right ? well you should . We miss you a lot here . You too know it right ? Just to let you know sometimes when i saw your pict , I felt a warm tears falls down . I cant help it . Im sorry , i just miss you so much . Well sometime i do think what are you doing right now . are you watching us there. Well I hope you do . You know what , your little baby just got to school . His first day . He was so happy but then the next day mom said that he got scolded by his homeroom teacher. Guess what ? He said that he dont want to study . So funny isnt ? He resemble you a lot . How he act , just looking at him I will think about you . well , mom ? shes doing well . sometimes she talks about you , i swear she looks like she miss you a lot . I can see it by looking at her . Your second daughter , im sorry ive nothing to talk about here . Well i guess shes doing well . Maybe . Your first son ? He's doing well . He is better than me i guess . Guess what , he got A's in every subject . I wanna kill him . May I ? haha im kidding :)
Well I hope he will be like that till forever  . I want him to be a successful person . So do you right ? I trust him . He can do it . He said to me once , he wants to be a doctor when he grown up . Its a good dream right ? Hehe . What are you doing now ?  You miss me too right ? You miss us . Am i right ? just if you can feel it.
I miss you dad , I miss the moment were together . watching tv beside you , hear your nag , i miss those moments . just if i can go back to that time i promise ill treat you better . I promise I will make you laugh everyday , study hard and wont fight with Anna . I promise that . but what to do , it cant be happen right? I knew that . Well I think i wrote to much . I need to sleep now dad . I miss you . I love you . We miss you . saranghae <3

another raising star

LEE JONG SUK <3

meet my another Lee . just why the lee(s) people so handsome . haha . Lee Min Ho , Lee Seung Gi , Lee Hong Ki , Lee Gwang Soo . Endless Lee fan <3

•  Lee Jong Suk (이종석, born 14 September 1989) is a South Korean actor and model. He debuted in 2005 with the short film Sympathy. Jong Suk has appeared on CFs for several companies and notably for CASS Beer Fresh with Kim Woo-bin and New Asics with Ha Ji-won. He also won Best New Actor at the 2012 KBS Drama Awards - for School 2013

See , debut in 2005 , and only now I realize his existence in entertainment world . Ive watched his drama ' i can hear your voice ' starred as Park Soo Ha . A pitiful kid that loss his father . And the most interesting thing is , he have an ability to read others mind . Haha , sounds ridiculous right? But yes , dah his character , what to do ? cayak jak siaa . right ? 

Another profile of him :)

• Name: 이종석 / Lee Jong Suk
• Profession: Actor, model
• Birthdate: 1989-Sep-14
• Birthplace: Yongin City, Gyeonggi-do, South Korea
• Height: 186cm
• Weight: 65kg
• Star sign: Virgo
• Blood type: A
• Family: One younger brother and one younger sister

Hoping that he'll be given many awards with that talent :)
- Lee <3